From Darkness to Light: Embracing the Power of Creation in a Shifting World
reconnect with the magic of creation
We need to return to the beginning, to the moment when magic was fully alive, when we were present in an animate Earth with all of our senses awake.
Llewellyn Vaughan Lee
In 2020 I went to Auroville in India. I was at the end of a month-long meditation retreat and had 24 hours before my flight home.
I wanted to visit the Temple of the Mother called Maitrimandir. To visit requires the usual lengthy processes and protocols, you can visit only at certain times. I hadn’t been prepared enough to do any of the necessary.
However, I got myself to Auroville and decided to try my luck. I had been reassured that if The Mother wants you there, you’ll get access. Much to my delight and good fortune (maybe The Mother did want me there after all) I managed to hop on a little bus to enter the magnificent golden temple.
Entering the Temple felt very futuristic and Bond-like. It took 37 years to build and inside there is an inner chamber with pillars, in the centre sits a glass globe with light beaming down to it to represent the Supramental Force coming down into the Earth at this time.
The experience I had in that chamber goes beyond my capacity to explain in words. Something had changed for me that day. Perhaps it was the culmination of writing The Mother book for the past 30 days or because I was in such a clear state after meditating for a minimum 4 hours a day for the previous month. Or perhaps it was just the next step on my spiritual journey. Whatever it was, it’s taken me til now to be able to share more of my experiences and writings on the Divine Feminine and this call back to the World Soul.
This experience at Maitrimandir gifted me a new dimension of devotion and I continue to follow the golden threads I’m being shown.
Sometimes what and who shows up can surprise me, like when the Marys arrived.
When the Marys arrived, they made themselves known in a way I hadn’t been aware of before.
They directed me towards the Gnostic texts and also to contemplate what they had to share. It’s been a great healing. I’ve been able to see another layer of where guilt, shame and fear were instilled in me and in that, I was able to see where the dogma and indoctrination nearly stopped me from understanding the essence of their teachings. It’s been another layer of healing in my recovery from the patriarchal and dogmatic religion that left me with a lot of misunderstandings.
“Let the darkness arrive, enter through the stillness.
There lies waiting for you a tremendous love. ”
Kirsty Nazaré
Recently, I have been having a love affair with the Darkness, it’s come to me in a way I’ve not experienced before. It’s not a depression that is so often associated with the darkness, it’s been a rather sudden and deep experience of being bathed in nothingness. Maybe I need to call it the Vastness instead since there are such misunderstandings about the word ‘dark’ however what it has shown me is that it’s a beautiful, vast field of incredible, boundless, unconditional love. It is available to us all and the void is the no-thing that all arises out of. It’s reminded me that we all arise from the womb, the darkness, the non-seeing, we all come from no-thing.
In this darkness, if we can visit and face our fears and move past the pre-conceived ideas, we will be rewarded with such richness and compassion, for ourselves and one another.
Then, just in the past few days, the Marys nudged me to explore the Black Madonna. Again, I found I was slightly resistant to going down what I saw as another Catholic route. However, I was once again reminded that this representation goes beyond religion and that the Divine Feminine essence is important for me to both understand and share.
I’ve only scratched the surface of The Black Madonna but what jumped out to me is that she comes in times of need and that her roots stem from a Pre-Christian era where she represented the worship of Mother Earth.
Of course!!
The fact that we are in what is considered Holy times between Christmas and New Year, that we are in a dark night of the soul globally and for many personally as we face our despair, I find it no coincidence that she has arrived into my life right now. She is here to guide us, she brings great compassion as we face our fears and tend to our wounds. She will hold us.
I have been led to Allesandra Berloni’s work on the Black Maddona. This is what she has to say on Her:
The Black Madonna is the female embodiment of God. Her power hails from the fact that She impacts all of humanity, in a very global and inclusive way. She embraces everyone, and everyone has access to Her divine spirit and power. She is the Black Madonna also because she represents the archetype of the African Mother.
Alessandra Belloni
There is a lot of controversy about why she is the Black Madonna and there are many conflicting views. On the Wellcome Trust website, Daniela Vasco shares the following:
“The most commonly accepted theory deems the images' skin colour to be accidental: these Madonnas were once white, but have darkened through ageing and exposure to candle soot.
This explanation is as much anecdotal as it is a symptom of cultural whitewashing.
But I, and many others, were still not convinced.
As there has always been exchange and continuity between different cultures and religious systems, I am strongly inclined to agree with historians who argue that the Black Virgin Mary is linked to ancient pre-Christian worshipping of Mother Earth and other female divinities.
These divinities are shared ancestors between her and goddesses such as Cybele, Artemis, Gaia and Isis (some of them often portrayed as black). In this case, black is not only a mystical colour associated with fertile earth, but also an expression of an ancient cultural memory that connects us back to our early history in Africa.” Daniela Vasco - link below for the article
She reminds us that Earth is our home, to treat it as sacred and that each being is Divine.
This is also how I received the transmissions of The Mother of Pondicherry too. It is also part of the teachings I am learning from the Andean Cosmology where Pachamama is the Chief of all Ceremony and of course, all of them are calling us back home.
“Without reconnecting to the Soul and the guidance and wisdom of the Feminine, without going in search of the values it represents and opening our own heart to its subtle guidance, we will not understand the purpose of our presence on this planet, nor will we be able to disempower the unconscious atavistic tendencies which draw us ever closer to the destruction of our habitat and therefore to self-annihilation.” Anne Baring
We are in a time that is calling us spiritually and shamanically, to tend to our wounds, to grieve, to come home and honour our lives, each breath. To give thanks and praise for what is here for us, the fact the sun rises and we get to greet each breath if we choose. It’s a call to recognise the simplicity in the moment, to make offerings, to live in reverence to what is here. To honour the miracle of life, to feel the joy and sweetness and give thanks and praise. For in sorrow, there is also love. In love there is joy. In joy, there is also grief.
As we navigate this dark night of the soul, let us be heartened that this is a death of an identity of the world where the systems and powers that be have to die, it’s a horrifying death throw that the world is in but in this falling of ideologies and structures that seemed true and real, the ego dies and in that, there is a waking up to the Truth.
“The mind will try to distract you but the Soul will keep guiding you, listen. It’ll lead you to the Divine.” Kirsty Nazaré
We are each learning important lessons if we can listen. It is not easy and there’s certainly no running from it but it doesn’t have to be done on your own.
This is the time to gather and share your heart, to tend to your community and look after the loved ones around you. This is when we gather in song, we pray, we honour the heartbreak, we light candles and ask for guidance, we sit around the fire, or come together in ritual and ceremony.
This is when we listen and learn and let those who have walked a bit further on the journey, take your hand and reassure you that you can do this. This is where you tend to your needs too and ask for help.
Then, eventually, the light emerges from the dark, new life and a new cycle begins.
As I close this essay I just want to say this.
We have the opportunity for the next stage of human consciousness to land, there isn't an instruction manual because each of us has our own journey, however, there are some that are a little further along that can help, there are teachings from great sages and saints, spiritual teachings and wisdom traditions that bring great guidance.
As the world enters more of the death throws of consciousness evolution, and the dissolution of control and domination, the power of connection is prominent.
“We have to realize that when we deny the divine mystery of the feminine, we also deny something fundamental to life. We separate life from its sacred core, from the matrix that nourishes all creation. We cut ourselves from the source that alone can heal, nourish, and transform. The same sacred source that gave birth to each of us is needed to give meaning to our life, to nourish it with what is real and to reveal to us the mystery, the purpose of being alive. Because humanity has a central function in the whole of creation, what we deny ourselves we deny to all of life. In denying the feminine her sacred power and purpose, we have impoverished life on personal and global levels in ways we do not understand…. Yes, we see now the outer effects on the earth, but it is so much more difficult to recognize the inner effects, which have been devastating.”
LLEWELLYN VAUGHAN-LEE
Currently I am curating a very special pilgrimage to India in early 2026, we will visit sacred sites and holy temples with an optional trip in Goa, to integrate afterwards.
We will visit sacred sites and holy temples that are rich with spiritual significance. This is not just a trip—it’s a unique and profound journey that blends wisdom, power, beauty, and harmony—the four divine powers that embody the Mother’s evolutionary force.
Through this pilgrimage, you will experience the four distinct aspects of the Divine Mother’s energy: Maheshwari (Wisdom), Mahakali (Power), Mahalakshmi (Beauty), and Mahasaraswati (Harmony). Together, these forces create a powerful, evolutionary dance that aligns us with the divine will of the Earth.
This journey has been a vision I’ve been nurturing for years, and I’m excited to share it with a small, intimate group of like-minded souls. You’ll have the opportunity to explore sacred temples, immerse yourself in deep meditation, and reconnect with the source of creation.
For those seeking a deeper integration after our pilgrimage, an optional serene retreat in Goa will offer rest and relaxation to complete the experience.
If you feel called to this sacred journey, I invite you to join the waitlist for full details. This is a once-in-a-lifetime experience that I can’t wait to share with you.
love
Kirsty